Today had been full of emotion, exhaustion, and blessings! Yep, I said BLESSINGS! My phone has buzzed off the hook, Facebook had multiple notifications, and I won't even go down the path of emails and emails and more emails! This girl is BLESSED!
I was reading this morning for homework that I had and saw a quote that said something like, "Sometimes God closes doors because it is time for you to move forward. He knows you won't move unless circumstances cause you to". Boy, does that describe me to a "T". I truly feel like that God has been closing doors, cleaning house, wiping away junk...for a few days now for us to be able to see what he has in store for our home.
Most of my friends know that we have one going to college in the fall...I know I don't look old enough to have one going to college, but I assure you I do!!! I have had to come to the reality that God is closing a door in my life (as a mom to a little girl) and opening a door for me to be a mom to a young lady. I also have realized that He gave us a little kick in the behind when Reed got sick. See, we had gotten complacent with Reed's diabetes. Don't get me wrong, he manages it better most days that I would be able to in a life time, but I felt like I knew how to live with this thing...the big D.
I know now that God was saying, "Tammy, you have poured your heart, soul, and mind supporting, praying for, and loving this young man, but you don't have to be the leader, the best, or accomplish all of it in less than two years". What am I getting at???? It is time for me to sit back and listen, ask questions and listen, but most of all....listen to others with much more experience but most of all to GOD!
I pray you are listening to Him!
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Why is God's Grace So Amazing?
It has been a long time since I have posted, and today I feel the need to post...
I am posting tonight because of the chain of events over the past three days. Reed came home from school Tuesday telling me his throat was hurting, so I did my regular regimen of questions: do you think you have fever, do you feel sick, could it be allergies, and the ultimate WHAT HAS YOUR BLOOD SUGAR BEEN? All of these questions were answered "normally"...or what "normally" is for a 16 year old diabetic boy!
During the night Tuesday night (I call it God telling me to get up), Reed came and climbed in bed with us telling us his whole body was hurting, and he couldn't swallow. Did I think it was T1D related, nope, I knew he was getting sick, probably with strep throat...so the very first thing I did was call our family doc on Wednesday morning, made an appointment, and the started down the path of what is required for his diabetes. In our world we call it a "sick day plan"...checking his blood glucose level and making him "pee" in a cup to check his keytones. Well, the dreaded appeared, for the first time ever....his keytones were LARGE! I didn't panic...God's grace is amazing.
When we got to the doctor she did a strep test, and yep it was positive, so we left, felling good that we knew it was strep, that I needed to hydrate him as much as possible, and get him home to rest, drink, rest, drink, rest, and DRINK. By Wednesday night, he felt terrible...nauseous (he had a phenergan shot in the dr's office that morning), running fever, and his keytones were LARGE.
Wednesday morning we got up and returned to the doctor...he received two bags of IV fluids, another shot of phenergan, and told us to come home and drink, drink, DRINK. Needless to say, we did but could not get the keytones under control, resulting in going to the hospital Wednesday night...
I am running on a few hours of sleep right now, but I am sharing all of this because after his first round of blood work, we were told we would not have to go to PICU, but to a room in the Children's Hospital...hurrraaayyyy, right? WRONG! How can you be happy for your 16 year old baby to be poked and prodded, not "peeing" but 2 times in a 14-18 hour period that is being filled with fluids from an IV bag hanging over head...
I am not telling you this for pity, I am telling you this because, as exhausted as I am...GOD's GRACE IS AMAZING! Today we were told what a great job we did in getting him to the hospital before he did go into ketoacidosis, and that his numbers reflected that he was severely dehydrated with the dreaded stomach virus that has been going around.
God's grace is amazing because we have a phenomenal group of endocrinologists in Greenville that are wise, and have the ability to make the parent feel strong, competent, and encouraged. God's grace is amazing because there are real parents that support T1D and pull together to make us feel loved, supported, and gives us the ability to share experiences. But bigger than any of these? God's grace is amazing because as down and discouraged as I was, I have the biggest and bravest God on my side that His grace taught my heart to fear, but also relieved ALL my fears. This song has played through my head for the past few days...Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that save a wretch like me....How precious did that grace appear, the hour I first believed....
I am praying that if you took the time to read my blog, that God's grace calms all your fears, God's grace grants you peace, and you realize GOD'S GRACE IS SOOOOO AMAZING BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU AND ME!
I know to look at him on the outside, he looks normal...but on the inside he has the biggest heart, sweetest soul, and yep has type 1 diabetes!
I am posting tonight because of the chain of events over the past three days. Reed came home from school Tuesday telling me his throat was hurting, so I did my regular regimen of questions: do you think you have fever, do you feel sick, could it be allergies, and the ultimate WHAT HAS YOUR BLOOD SUGAR BEEN? All of these questions were answered "normally"...or what "normally" is for a 16 year old diabetic boy!
During the night Tuesday night (I call it God telling me to get up), Reed came and climbed in bed with us telling us his whole body was hurting, and he couldn't swallow. Did I think it was T1D related, nope, I knew he was getting sick, probably with strep throat...so the very first thing I did was call our family doc on Wednesday morning, made an appointment, and the started down the path of what is required for his diabetes. In our world we call it a "sick day plan"...checking his blood glucose level and making him "pee" in a cup to check his keytones. Well, the dreaded appeared, for the first time ever....his keytones were LARGE! I didn't panic...God's grace is amazing.
When we got to the doctor she did a strep test, and yep it was positive, so we left, felling good that we knew it was strep, that I needed to hydrate him as much as possible, and get him home to rest, drink, rest, drink, rest, and DRINK. By Wednesday night, he felt terrible...nauseous (he had a phenergan shot in the dr's office that morning), running fever, and his keytones were LARGE.
Wednesday morning we got up and returned to the doctor...he received two bags of IV fluids, another shot of phenergan, and told us to come home and drink, drink, DRINK. Needless to say, we did but could not get the keytones under control, resulting in going to the hospital Wednesday night...
I am running on a few hours of sleep right now, but I am sharing all of this because after his first round of blood work, we were told we would not have to go to PICU, but to a room in the Children's Hospital...hurrraaayyyy, right? WRONG! How can you be happy for your 16 year old baby to be poked and prodded, not "peeing" but 2 times in a 14-18 hour period that is being filled with fluids from an IV bag hanging over head...
I am not telling you this for pity, I am telling you this because, as exhausted as I am...GOD's GRACE IS AMAZING! Today we were told what a great job we did in getting him to the hospital before he did go into ketoacidosis, and that his numbers reflected that he was severely dehydrated with the dreaded stomach virus that has been going around.
God's grace is amazing because we have a phenomenal group of endocrinologists in Greenville that are wise, and have the ability to make the parent feel strong, competent, and encouraged. God's grace is amazing because there are real parents that support T1D and pull together to make us feel loved, supported, and gives us the ability to share experiences. But bigger than any of these? God's grace is amazing because as down and discouraged as I was, I have the biggest and bravest God on my side that His grace taught my heart to fear, but also relieved ALL my fears. This song has played through my head for the past few days...Amazing grace, how sweet the sound that save a wretch like me....How precious did that grace appear, the hour I first believed....
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| These are my amazing examples of Grace in my life |
I know to look at him on the outside, he looks normal...but on the inside he has the biggest heart, sweetest soul, and yep has type 1 diabetes!
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